Between Us, The Moon & The Stars

30th Sep 2011

2011-09-30T13:50:00.002+08:00

There are things i wanna do and accomplish.
So Tomorrow will mark a new beginning for me,
because it's a new semester.

Hello!
Sorry, that i left my blog dead for so so so long!
I've alot to tell though.

Firstly, Starting tomorrow is my second semester in ITE.
I met a lot of Fun loving people too!
Secondly, I've taken up NYAA Gold! and really wanna do my best for it!
Thirdly, during my Sep holiday, many many things have happen!:)
Lastly, I have been eating weirdly these days...

Thus in the month of October. I will make a start. You will see~:)
Don't worry. I'll blog, Try to blog everyday if Possible.:)
Now, i'm off to tumblr.
this my tumblr page. www.whensthereslove.tumblr.com

2nd March 2011

2011-03-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since I last Blog~~
Well.. Taken my O level, ending up in ITE. Banking Services...
Mean time. I am doing nothing.
This holiday. I have to acheieve something...
Acheieve to LOSE WEIGHT...
Sigh...
I am damn heavy...
Everyday, Been doing work out. but no results yet...
SIGH...
Oh well...
I got to go~~

6march2010

2010-03-06T23:38:00.002+08:00

Finailly I stood up to say "No"

Lol that pharse so silly...
yes...

Things has change, everything has change...
So glad that i saw my bestfriend today in church!:):)

Oh jasmine! Please... Boyfriend... Not this time la....

15022010

2010-02-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

(Note that this post withh be full with trash:))

Hey but before i trash...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!:)

So now i'll start:)....

I think I have bear enough... I don't know you anymore, and times have changed... I feel so leftout, I feel so stupid... I don't know why I had been friends with you in the first place, bloody hell, bloody shit, I really hate myself for this vulgar way I am being, and thanks to who am i being this way???

P.s: this is my blog, i can write anything i want, so don't go saying stupid things in my blog when u don't know what happened... I am sorry that I am being this way, but i cannot control anymore, because I sick and tired of this friend being... this friendship is just a show... a show that i realise now...:(:(:(

11022010

2010-02-11T20:37:00.004+08:00

Happy belated Birthday Jae & Yunho!:)
Sorry, I am really busy with school work...

Sigh, super busy with CIP...
and this week is CT week...
I flunk all my subject except for english and maths... thats what i'am gussing now....

Yah!... Geo and lit will be after CNY...

Inaddition CNY 2 more days!!!:)
ain;t I am happy??:)

Sigh... and why am i sighing???
I think i found myslef liking Shinee too...

Dongbang is a cancer in me,
Shinee is a flu virus...

Vday is on CNY...
Wonder what will couples do....
Hmmm....

28012010

2010-01-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

Will I able to live it through,
Can you help me kiss away this pain?

My heartbeats like it will never stop,
If I do, I will be gone.

For a pain that I am going through,
will it take me far or near?

For a pain that I am going through,
how long will I last till the very end?

It seem too much for me to bear,
Did you know I've waited long?

Longing to hear those words from you,
Will I able to make it through without you tonight?

....

End:)

28012010

2010-01-28T22:21:00.002+08:00

Once so true, yet so fake...

Happy Birthday Jaejoong!!!:)
(belated birthday)

School buliding indoor sports hall! Finally!

Today homework due next week, i can take my time to do at the airport tomorrow:):)

Shinee coming to Sg, It be super pack, very pack, IT SHINEE!!!

Just when will Dong bang be coming to Sg??:(

Its been a year that i know them though:(

So sad....
Sad...
Sad...

25012010

2010-01-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
My love to you,
Is always true.
You light up my life,
You make me shine,
Don't leave me alone,
cos you are mine.

17012010

2010-01-17T22:25:00.002+08:00

Sweet timings are too far from me:(

I've got a goal now, to know what I would love to do in my near future,
but i need to work super hard for it.

Yah! And I cried, instead of me happy, i cried, i freaking cried for THEM,
yah! sigh, I miss them on stage.

And I realise they are somehow my motivation to do well.
I want to! Very much...

But I have no idea why am I so depress lately...
and Crazy at the same time...

I just couldn't find any smile on my face today.
It was just so plainless for me...
So plain so cold...

My laughter had gone since the start of the year...
Everything, the sweetest thing in me, gone too soon...

Sigh...
Biology had just done...
HWHW!!!

17012010

2010-01-17T22:15:00.003+08:00

One thing I do not understand, why is the star so far away??

Today I'll just write a small poem...

Little things can be great,
Big things can be not so great,
but one thing I realise my Big impression has taken me far enough

Little by little,
I began to understand what is not real,
and what is meant to be for me.

My dreams are far,
But my tomorrow is close,
Shouldn't I dream anymore?
Should I just blast my head off?

14012010

2010-01-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

Friends and be forgotten, if one is not remembered...

Today, i feel so stupid in class.
And i was having bad crams...

Narin was high, kim was normal.
But i just feel unwanted...

Was so happy to see Jasmine!
I miss her so much...

Council is different,
there will be a different me in council and out of council,
will have to show my back...
(only those who are close will know what i'll mean)

Everything changes,
even me myself too,
feeling stupid by the end of the day....

13012010

2010-01-13T21:00:00.002+08:00

Dreams are dreams, they aren't real...

YAH!!! I had a horrible dream!!
But i dream of Rin and Yoochun having a baby girl, and i was their babysitter:):)
Then i have a dream of mine... -.-''' Oh no, you wanna know-.-'''

School was tiring! I had 6 subjects today!! With thick books!! Duh...

Haha, then after school today, met vivian:):)
MISS YOU!!!! *hugs*

She told me her wonderful story during work, i just admire her:):) hahaha:)
(your one lucky girl! you have to know that! understand?!!)

End my homework, but my english homework, i need help from my english teacher, learning how to write resume?? I need her help!!!!

maths was nuts today!! I PRACTICALLY HAD CRACK MY BRAIN CELLS!!!:(:(
But it was worth it for homework:):) hehehe

Okays! Shall end here:)
LOVE LOVE YOU!;)

12012010

2010-01-12T21:05:00.002+08:00

New life beignning, New rules applies...

My wants:

1) To have a pet dog. (Have to get it after O's)
2) To lose weight 3 kg for per month!
3) To find the perfect guy (After O's)
4) To cherish and love everyone around me more:)
5) To work really hard for O's

And you know what, whatever i wants is I HAVE TO DO IT after my O's is done!!-.-'''
I can't do it now, expect for No.2&5.

Okays. I will end here today;)
I need to get back to my dictionary hahaha:)

12012010

2010-01-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

Everyone Changes instantly...

The 2nd post that I'am writing:)

I MISS MRS JUNG!
I MISS MRS PARK!
I MISS MRS KIM!
I MISS MRS KIM!
I MISS MR SHIM!

I am so starting to love my subject teachers! But MATH's is going way too slow...
And I am studying the dictionary, Oh! you can call me crazy... because i think i am already! Hahaha:(

I miss attending saturday masses...:(

I need to work much harder now:(

But, I CAN'T WAIT FOR CNY!!:):)

12012010

2010-01-12T20:51:00.002+08:00

Time flys thats I really miss the old times...

Happy new year!

And i know my blog is really dead, I make it through my N's going to O's this year:)
Aren't you glad for me?? hehe:)

The 5 of us, 181209, Py was the first to have her results, but she didn't make it through. I was speechles, I couldn't say anything to comfort her, but seeing how she studies now, I am happy for her:)
Then it was my turn, i thought to myself, "If py can't make it, i won't be making it too" thus, i went to the table with a heavy heart, and with my results infornt of me, "I will see you next year" my english teacher told me as she handed me over my sec 5 booklist. I was shock and i cried, my friends thought that i didn't make it either but they scold me, why you cry? you should be happy! but i cry and cry and cry. followed by jasmine,she didn't make it well, but she tried her best, followed by kimber who scored well:) and Rin, A BIG imporvement!:) I am happy for her:)

So the 3 of us still continuing schooling in Sec 5A.
And missing my 2 other half...

221109

2009-11-22T20:27:00.002+08:00

Stress-Free

Since I have nothing to do now... let me post something...
About my job?... Haha sure! Wait, how about my work mates? hehe! Okays!

My works mates, under...

Coco Tree
1) Elvis and Rohani.

Haagan Das
2) Amanda, lazel.

Pachi
3) Nurul.

Govidaer.
4) Ru Yaun, Ishiak, Vincent.

Actually, there is 2 more under pachi, but am not too sure whats their name...
They are very fun people! Really! Also mostly, i call them Kor/Jie:) haha, and we work under the same roof:) hehe and they know my secret also... Thanks to Elvis... Next person who really know what happen, would also be Peiyun, Vivian and Narin.

221109

2009-11-22T20:11:00.002+08:00

Love is the sweetest of it all...

HAPPY ANNIVERSAY MUMMY DADDY!:)

remember that I love you always,
may your many years more together be fruitful,
and please also to continue to bear Shawn and I alittle while more:)
hehe.

SARANGHAE!:)

211109

2009-11-22T19:57:00.002+08:00

As soon as I turn back, the time fly fast...

Dong Bang won award:) I was really glad, but yet upset... Yunho, Changmin weren't at that scene of course... Because of Boycott between SM and DBSK... Sigh, only JaeChunSu went:(

Offday today... I did totally nothing at all! Hello! NOTHING!
But I reflected alot... Alot...

1) My N results in 3 weeks time...
2) How can I lose the weight of mine...
3) Relationship...
4) My parents...
5) My friends...

Mostly about thats all... Sigh... Relationship... I don't know how... Who would like a girl like me in the freaking first place? Everyone always goes for appearance first... Sigh... and about "That" sigh... I do not want to get my hopes so high...

You know recently, I just don't know why, something is wrong with... REALLY wrong... Only friends who know me, who also know what happen, would really know why... Hmmm

My friends didn't find him cute... he's tall, and thin, because of just that spolier, they didn't find him cute... he also didn't smile... maybe thats one of the reasons, but i just find him cute... his smile just... Okays.. Enough! I am goinf nuts...

Yah! but what the use of me liking him??? No use at all... thats why i say... who on earth, which guy... would actually like me, a girl like that, size like that?... I Don't know at all...

Molayo... Biane Chinguya... Biane

201109

2009-11-21T00:42:00.005+08:00

Whens theres love, everything can be just as silly as it is...

Today it's the 20th of Nov... Its been the 10/11th day since I've started work...

And I really like my job:)

Narin, Peiyun and Delyn came:) We had lunch together and I really miss them lots!:)

Well, today wasn't that bad for sales, at least we sold something haha:)

Anyway, My work place has cute teddys! I just can't stop looking at them:) Hehe

Isn't it cute??:)

Are they just as lovely??:)

Isn't the 3 of them just as close best friends??:)

111109

2009-11-11T13:08:00.003+08:00

Bitter sweet moments...

111109

2009-11-11T13:00:00.002+08:00

Chocolates!

Okays! I've been working since the 7 of nov at The Coco Trees:)

My manager seems nice and fun too! Just love her!:) Then met new friends, named Rohini and Levis. They are nice, funny, heart warming bunch of friends:) Glad that I am working with them:)

Know why I am blogging today? hehe because its my offday! Yaypy! Then tomorrow I would need to work again:)

Chocolates are like the tears that I found...

Milk Chocolates, are like the happy tears,

Dark Chocolates, are like the broken hearted, full of saddes...

Sometimes, Chocolates, are just like just,

just having the bitter sweet time of moments:)

Dong Bang Shin Ki...

2009-11-04T21:09:00.001+08:00

Waeyo! Chakia, Waeyo?

I don't know what's been happening, I don't know anymore...

Where's the Tohoshinki that I know? Where is the Dong Bang Shin Ki that I know??

The perfect 5 that I know this year, had rank the 1st amoungs the other bands, what will happened? The perfect brotherhood, the bond with one another, had they all forgotten? The perfect silliness withon their shyness, will I not see anymore?? The only 5 friends, that gotten working everything together, reaching the highest level, still would strive more towards their dream goal, will I see them like this on stage again?

To: DBSK.

I miss you my dear DBSK, I know decisions will be very difficult this time round, I don't know whether is true or not, that the 3 and 2 are not contacting each other, but I pray hard you all will still be keeping in touch. True or false, I hope your decision will be made wisely.

Yunho, your the group leader, your busy will your drama, I understand. To side to SM, i truely understand, because SM groom you 5 together, without SM there will be no TVXQ/DBSK. But still as a leader, did you thought what is best for 5 of you? I hope you did:) Cause being a leader, it holds much more responsibilty...

Changmin, your the youngest member in the group, you may follow where you think is right, but even if your the youngest member in the group, you could also voice your opinion. You also seem busy with your drama...

Yunho, Changmin, I don't know why, I hope you don't get offended, just that, isit because of the drama that you all doing is under SM? and with the drama, you don't want to destory the rankings of it release on air? I am not too sure... And that you pity SM? because after all they had done for you, made you what you are now?.... But are you also going to fight for your rights?

Jaejoong, you had been in the SM for so long, but why didn't you settle this case earlier? why did the three of you had to do this, in the middle of your glorious achivement? I really don't understand...

Yoochun, you are the closes to every member in the group. But I don't understand, if you say that you will wait for Yunho, Changmin, everyone to get back toegther again, why have you and Jaejoong, release an album on your own?

Junsu, last but not least, you are the quietest amongest the members. Are you okay? your the only member that i am really concern with, what on earth have you been doing these few months?? there is no action or anything...

Jae,Chun, Su, waeyo? what's wrong? I know SM hasn't been treating you all well, NEVER once did. why they made you super duper WOW, no words can explain. and you want to wait for Yun, Min to get to you? Wae? So now can you see, I don't know who I can side? You all are 1, all the fans in the world see it as this, not 2. Why don't you all just sue sm for mistreating, but continue to stay in SM? because they are the once who give you, made you DBSK/TVXQ am I right?... I don't want to see my fav Band just going off the drain just like that! This is not the TVXQ/DBSK I know...

DBSK, what will you all consider and do?? Just what is it??

031109

2009-11-04T20:57:00.003+08:00

To be faithful, needs alot of time...

Today council camp was Brillant! Yay! Haha, i am so happy! It went out just fine...
however, sadly, is not a overnight camp, it's a day camp just for 2 days...
But, but, Yay!! It was great! The games was so much fun! Happy! Happy!:)
Then halfway through the camp, met Rin!

Mogoshippeoseo Chinguya!:):)

I'll post the pictures when I have taken every thing, from day 1 and 2 ye?
hehe, got to go now!

Saranghae Chingu;)

Day that dissapointing to me

2009-09-30T23:04:00.003+08:00

Friends like you are hard to find...

My blog has been rotting for months... Think i shall post...

Hmmm well still undergoing N's, however, next week will soon end and i will miss all my friends in school and i already missing them...

I'am so terribly, horribly sad... really.... I want to celebrate Hari Raya with Narin, but i can't cause have lunch and i promise to go to her house too... and i can't... I know how it feels like cause i've been in her shoes before... I dont know what to do now... Sigh, best friends like this, i feel so sad, that i can't do anything... '' even a sorry is can't cure the feeling '' that was how i felt...

To my dearest best friend:)
Your the bestest friend that i have ever met in secondary school life:)
Although you can be mad, crazy, painful, everything you have inside you come as you as one:)
Your funniest, your laughter, you smile just make everyone day, even my day. when i'am down, thank you for always standing by my side. although you don't know what to say at times, thank you for being there. And i pray that our friendship will last tillour last breath:) Love you:)

6 july 09

2009-07-06T20:15:00.002+08:00

Happiness comes with Love...

I shall change colour and write for this month... Okays.. I am seriously bored...
Not bored that i plan to update my blog. Its been days or months since i just blog it yesterday.
Haha.

I found this website not long ago. And am stuck on to it. Haha

www.tvxqsoul.com
www.jpopasia.com

This two website.:) Not not gonna say about it. But of cause 1 says about Tohoshinki.. haha

Oh crap... now i've just realise I have my chinese homework not fully done. Rather haven't even started.

And I have a very good news! Haha, related to school but more on student council work. Haha, sec 4s, 5s graduating class would have happy too:) I am sure you would:) Haha.

Been busy on student council work. Can't sleep and that reminds me my English N is this friday!
lucky am not going to other school to take oral. If i do, i'll be taking taxi. Really thank god for that. haha:):)

I better go:) Nites everyone! Got homework to finished up:) haha

Loves!

Fallin in love over again

2009-07-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

Stand By U ~ TVXQ

Since the day you left without a word of goodbye,
I feel that the scenery around me has changed.
The promise I madethat I would become your everything
and the incomplete memories have also changed.

When you were crying by yourself back then,
f only had I run to youyou would still be by my side.
If I was given one more chance,
I would tell you once againthat I love you.
But the words that contain my overflowing feelings cannot reach you anymore.

Where are you now?
Who are you with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are you doing and laughing at?

I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
And I still believe that we will see each other again.

This feeling won't change.
You're the only one I'm thinking of.
Just once more, I want you to stand at my back with your tied hair asking me
"Guess who it is~~~"and expecting me to say out your name.
Just the two of us being silly like that day by day.

I can't forget you,
But the truth is, I don't want to forget you.
I can't feel even a bit of happiness
because you're not by my side.
No matter how hard I try,I'll end up cryingand my tears just won't stop.

Where are you now?
Who are you with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are you doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
Istill believe that we will see each other again.

Therefore, I am right heresinging the song by myself.
Even though I don't have any reason to embrace this pain anymore,
I can't help doing it.

Even if I know that the days when you were by my side
making my world shine won't come back again,
and no matter what will happen,
no matter how far I'm lost,
Inever ever want to forget that my heart has chosen to love you.

No matter where you are,
no matter who you are with,
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of,
or what you are doing and laughing at,I will be here forever.

Even now, I am right here,
believing in a day that we will meet again.
This feeling won't change,
you are the only one I'm thinking of.
This feeling won't change,
you are the only one I'm thinking of

210609

2009-06-21T23:14:00.002+08:00

A single flower in the wide fields, thats all it matters...

You made me wanna smile...
You made me wanna cry...
With so much of these that you've have moved me,
I could barely cry and smile...

You fond of a flower, left the weed
grew with the flower, hurt the weed...
why didn't you just step the weed and go with the flower...
thats all you ever needed to hurt the strongest...

The weed stays still, rain or shine, but the flower wilt without enough love...

190609

2009-06-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

Big lies, Big story.

Boo... Boo... but.... Anyway! Hahaha, oh super junior and DBSK make my day!! Hehe. I have no idea what other Jap Dramas are nice to watch lately...

I finish part A of Lit, part A of Geography and all of my maths homework!! Ain't you proud of me??! Hehehe...

tomorrow will be part B of Lit i guess... Sigh... Another week and school reopens. Actually, school reopens next week, for me.

Hmm Hmm.. Oh today too was my first day that i step into my Dad's office. Oh the people are there are nice, and wried... Very wried...

Aunty: No need to say... *looks at my dad*
Dad: *kept quiet*
Aunty: No need to say! I know already! Photocopy. Chop Chop.

I was like... Yeah... Photocopy... I look like my dad, so is father-daughter... Man-.-''

And I ate durains! It was the best durains i ever eaten! So yummy!! 5 for 30, so EX! Wah.. But really it was delicious:):)

Tomorrow saturday!

P.S: Shall I call? Or shall I not call?... Maybe Not? Maybe Yes? Maybe Not?... Lol

180609

2009-06-18T23:34:00.002+08:00

To one it may be nothing, but to them, it means something.

Today i watched Mei-chan no Shiziji, from morning till evening! Wasn't that cool!. And its so horrible, i planned to study geography.. but man... i ended up watching Jap drama the whole day!! This is so not like me can...

So dissapointed with myself...:(:(

But the show was really good really!... I really love it...:) Can't help it.. Hehe...

Then I went to bed for awhile, and ended up picking someone phone call, and i ended can't sleep now... Dammed it....

Hmm Hmm Hmm... Anyway, I watch "Because Iam a girl" MV, It still made me teared.. Sob Sob... Can't help it... Maybe I am just to emotional...Sob Sob.. ( Arugh... Just Shut it Shannon!)

Bleah!.. Oh well... Then I'll go...

Love you!:):)

P.S: Since, I will ignore you, as you told me so? Guess I will, since i said maybe I'll try calling once in a while when I am free... But You didn't like it... Oh wells... Then too bad... And of course i will not call every single day... Don't want to be as irritating as ur friends, and a burden to you as well:) So Sayonara!:)

170609

2009-06-17T21:25:00.002+08:00

For what it had happened, let it be

"For the first time... When I look into your eyes...."

Haha, Remember this song? Its now being stuck in my frecking mind okay!! Can't get it out of my head!...

Anyway, today... Went to Allison house for Steamboat. It was to be a bbq, but not many people could really make it i guess? Or was it too troublesome? But anyway! I HAD FUN!!

Haha, played mahjong, oh my goodness! We played super fast can! Even aunties and uncles who played mahjong, is a much slower pace lor... Wah, first time, i ever seen and ever played... Lol...
BUT HAD FUN!!

Sadly... I had to leave at 8pm, if not can enjoy watching the movie:) "Coming Soon" Hmmm, not sure was that the real tittle, it was fun watching Sareen and Raychel screaming, and poor Natasha had sat in between them nearly had her ears dumb... Lol.. Oh my... The movie wasn't that scary too... but towards a certain part of it, i admit i too did scream... Hehe...

Okays! Got to go:) Nights everyone!:)

160609

2009-06-16T21:45:00.002+08:00

They Say That Men Will Never Feed On The Fish They Caught In The Sea, But They'll Eat It And Throw Away. Thats Why He Never Look At Her Anymore.

Wow! Its been 10 days since I last blog.
Wow! And Its the Third week of June Holidays.
Wow! One more week to school reopens.
Wow! One more month to N levels.
Wow! Three More weeks to NRP.

Wow! ITS ALL COMING SO FAST!!!!!!

And I left with Lit and Geography homework... No matter what, I just won't finished... And I met Spencer today... Oh Vivian don't kill me... He Finally passed me my books... HE FINALLY PASSED MY BOOKS! and you know what happen next:)

Hmm Hmm. I MISSED MR SHIM!! MR SHIM!! HOW ARE YOU?? HOW ARE YOU??....

OH OH!! And You know what! Todays my 3rd day since I last rode a bike!! hehe!! YAY!! I finally know how to ride a bike!! YAY!! And I am 16 and I finally know how to ride a bike!!! YAY! YAY!

sunday:
Shannon: Rin, you know what?! I finally know how to ride a bike today!!
Rin: *shock* are you seriously kidding me?!
Shannon: Nope!
Rin: You DINGO! YOU DINGO! Your such a DINGO!
Shannon: Hey! But ain't your happy for me? I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO RIDE A BIKE WHEN AM 16!! HAHAHA
Rin: Yes, i am happy, and upset for you.
Shannon: Why are you upset?
Rin: WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR LAST 16 years!! What have you been doing?!!!

Haha, but am happy that i finally able to know how to ride a bike kays!:):):):):) Hehe!

VIVIAN!!! THANKS FOR THE THUMB DRIVE!! I REALLY LOVED IT SO MUCH!! Mummy, daddy says its really sweet of you:) I really love it girl! really!:):) Thank you a thousand times!:)
Thanks everyone for the birthday gift, will will kept it:) Thank you.

100609

2009-06-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

Friends are just there when you need them:)

SWIMMING!! I WENT SWIMMING AGAIN! hahaha, i went with Yoorin this time. Went to an indoor swimming complex. So didn't get really Tan. I have no idea why I love being Tan too. Lol.

Oh and i was total crazy girl without my specs during swiming, I CAN"T SEE A SINGLE THING! And I embrassaed myself and made Yoorin Laughed till her tummy hurts:P

I called the light bulb which look like a clock, clock.

I see wrong things.

Oh and you know during the swimming pool, there was these 5 teenage boy who pisses me off, why could they just jump somewhere else and not beside side us?.

Plus, there was a couple... I guess...

Lady: Wo bu yao... Wo bu yao... Ze li bu fan bian...

Guy: *holding her wrist* ke yi la. kao jing yi dian.

and their actions like have *** in the pool! Hello is a pool for us to swim not having that in the pool plus is a public place, wanna do it go the bath room or the hotel near by or do it in your house!

wow and i super pissed can.

Hmm hmm. Then Then! Aside from that. I went to take LRT!!! YAY!!! First time taking it. Hehe.

5 june 09

2009-06-05T22:05:00.002+08:00

Gifts matters from its heart

Happy Birthday to Myself!!!

I am so glad today!...

Thank you classmates, for suddenly singing Happy brithday song in SS class. Thank you:)

Thank you Narin for your present! Love the Ring and The chain:):) Love it! Love Changmin letter:):):):)

Thank You Anna for your present! Love the Shirt! I'll wear it to sleep:) Really love it, your the first to bought it and its really wonderful:) Thank you:)

Thanks Waimin for the Card. I'll keep it.

Thanks Ameila and Jasmine for the cake!. It is really a big surprise and a very delicious cake you got for me... Thank you both...

Council BBQ. I really had alot of fun. Thank you girls making it a surprise.. I nearly teared.. Although I knew it was going to happen... But seriously, it turn out different from what i've thought... Thank you everyone!....

And last but not least! Every one who wished me happy birthday. Thank you for remembering...
Love u all... Even though there wasn't any gift. A heart like you all have, is enough for me...

Thanks everyone. Sweet 16, i will never forget this date. this year. this time:) Love u guys and girls:)

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2009-05-24T19:41:00.003+08:00

Take my hand, take a breath, hold me close and take one step...

Council pictures finally up!! Yay!! Hahaha:):)

I seriously have no idea what to blog about these days... Exams??

Okay la.. Passed 3 failed 3... Normal... June just speed all my energy up...

N need to get 13 points for 6 subjects.. Have too! Thats my aim..
I have to do it. No I got to do it!

Okays... i go go now...

Byebye!

170509

2009-05-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

When you do the bad things, everything will just go back on you...

Haha! Friends are still meantioning about Glass ceillings! Lol... I wonder how would a HDB flat, build with Glass... Lol...

But I prefer, buliding It by the lake shore... It be so much nicer... Right? Right? Right?... But I don't wanna build it... Wait! What am I saying... Oh well...

Today, I have nothing to do at home... Man! I think going to cat class on sundays are better than staying at home doing nothing...

And best I am band from going out on Monday and Tuesday... Dam it! What shall I do?? What Shall I do?? Now I have that feeling of those people band from going out, like you have lose your freedom... But I didn't really lose mine...

Okays! Shannon Stop It!

Man... I am just being mean now... Anyway, i did... search on Koo Hyn Sun. She is a great actress... Really... She started filming since 2005 and she is like choosn as best actress already... Wow... I still like her best in BOF, King and I, she is too strict. Oh well.

Hmmm Hmmm............ Okays.... I am so bored!!.....................

I better go too... Finally remember what I need to do:) Haha

160509

2009-05-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

When you seek, there always an answer...

Went for mass today! unfortunately, Vivian can't attend as she has something on and oh yea!

HAPPY THRID MONTH TO A COUPLE! HAHA!

Okays. Set with Sunitha and Monica. Haha. Something was up with me, curiosty i guess... SO i ask them... then it turn out a huge joke.... haha

Shannon: Will you two still Suntan?
Sunitha: I Don't want to get anymore darker.
Monica: Ya. We just manage to be like our mom. Manage.
Sunitha: So before suntan, we need to buy a huge bottle of Suntan loction...
*everyone laughed*
Sunitha: No way, we'll suntan, I still have my Netball trainings. Plus. I don't wanna be my dad.
too dark cannot see him. Only can see his White shirt. teeth. and eyes.

Lol. That was it! And I am going to Sentosa this saterday!! Oh yea! Mama! Oh yea!! Haha. Am so super high! Lol. I didn't drink okay, FYI.

So today. Lucky it was Father J.J, he grabs our attention by singing during the first part of the serment. I tell you he can sing!! VERY WELL!...

"Where do I begin, to tell the story of how great love can be..."

Heard of it? hahaha.. Duh... Today's serment was about Love.. Parents love. Kids love. Friendship love. BGR Love... So on and forth... Haha... So cool...

And Vivian. I will try to finish up chapter 9 and 10. I am changing parts for chapter 9 for DBSK. Hahaha. wait longer kays. LOL

150509

2009-05-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

Waiting for the right day to come and make my move...

YAY!!! Exams are over! Over! Over! Oh and you know what! Biology gonna flunk it! For the very first time! Can i celebrate that? Haha.

Today, I woke up at 8.30am, surprising, my eyes just open and my body just moved by itself. Use my laptop. Type my online sms story... Then went to Meet Vivian at 12.30pm... We went and have lunch, went comic store and spent nearly half an hour there. Haha!

So can't wait for next week saterday! Haha! Going to sentosa with 3 awesome girls! Haha misses them so much! Haha... Suntan! Wait for me! Mama coming!! Hahaha

I am totally bored. Seriously. And when I am bored I am always high! Hahaha:)

So a good thing or a bad thing? Both!!! Hahaha.

Okays. I better go, if not tomorrow i become very restless. Actually I am already am! Lol!

Goodnight!

2009-05-13T19:44:00.002+08:00

Baby, when we get married, I’ll never stay out all night, if we have 3 meals a day, I can cook one of those meals. I can guarantee that I won’t turn into a husband with a big belly. I’ll try my best. Just have a pretty baby for me.--- Jaejoong

Haha! Okays. Now you know why everytime Dbsk always bring smile to my face!:) So cute the way they answer...

Thus today. Hmmm had Literature... Paper 1 and Paper two and I think that I will do well for paper 2 instead of paper 1. paper 1 had poem and prose. thus of cause I did Poem. Hahaha.. It was nearly the same type of feeling how I was feeling before, very long time ago... and only Sulip and I in our whole clique did it.

Then had paper 2. A Raisin in the Sun. Was so happy that it came out. As in this question. "What do you think Ruth wants Walter to do for her and why is she willing to do for him. Refer closely to the other parts of the text." Hahaha! I love that question. But I don't have the confident of passing it... Cause only able to write 1 page... Sigh...

Oh well! Tomorrow last day of paper! and I able to sleep super late... Wait I always do that haha and I able to wake up super late! Lol you know I have been like going to school for exams paper early in the morning since the start of it.... and I have 5 days free!! Hahaha!

Having Maths paper 2 and Biology!:) I think I am going to flunck my maths. I just can't find my maths mid year paper of last year. Actually I did found it. But it is mixed with all my other maths work sheets! Oh man. Thus I have to revise all my notes instead... oh well...

Got to go and study again! Still have Biology... hahaha

120509

2009-05-12T19:36:00.002+08:00

Honey, I’ll be home soon, wait for me with a tasty meal--- Shim Changmin

Okays today Geography paper was a killer. But not really. It base on coastal, rivers and geography of food. This Coastal was the main. And it was there and not there... Haha So section B had to choose, when i look through section B saw rivers in my mind "Oh lets do geography of food instead" but geography I don't have the feeling that I will pass...

Then Physic... I LOVE MCQ! But this doesn't mean I will score full marks for it... And I hate mangnets! Somehow Physic was manageable:)

Tomorrow Pure Lit and I have not touch anything. And I able to blog somemore... Lol...

Narin and Me walking out of school.:)

Went to compass point... then head home... Hahaha

Guess today will be sleeping super duper late! Like 12-1am?? Hahaha and tomorrow paper at 9.15am...

Better stop and study! haha syonara:)

110509

2009-05-11T19:55:00.002+08:00

Friends are like memories... You always hold on to them till the very end...

Thus today! Haha didn't go to maths class... Was tired... Slept at 6.45am and woke up when sareen first message and Freddy kor's sms... And was at 10am. OMG! Super tired can... Din't know i can play that much yesterday with all the durnk uncles... Hahaha! So super funny can! Lol.

Today too... We able to ding Sareen back... haha Thanks To Freddy kor... Too bad PeiYun wasn't there.. But if she was she be laughing and chocking during dinner time...

Sareen! Then when can I go to your house and see the Glass House? Hahaha And you sure is very safe? Cause I don't want to wake up in the middle of the night and someone up in the celling there! Lol!

Other than fun, we all too did study... Lol... We are playful but still somehow hardworking kays... Right girls? Lol

Tomorrow had geography... As I've said before and Physic... Physics last min study can la... Use common sense? But is not like Biology... Sigh oh well... hahaha

Then I guess I have to see for Physic right? Hahaha Byebye!

070509

2009-05-07T20:17:00.004+08:00

For once, it felt so perfect...

Okays! Haha had SS today! Wonder why I am so happy about it? Hahaha cause I was an okay paper for me. Lol Thanks for the help from my cousin. He's rather good at teaching actually and have tons of patients too! Haha.

Maths... I think paper 1 will some how fail... You know there is like something wrong with me... Paper 1 always a screwed up and Paper always have flying colours?? What the hell is wrong with me by the way?? Easy once, i can't do, and the most difficult i can do?? Wah...

Tomorrow having Chinese Listening Comprehension. And I only need to be in school for HALF AN HOUR and go home! But I don't think I will go home after that? Planing to buy mothers day gift but have no idea what to get for her... Poem? Thank you note? Rather 2 in 1?

Today is rather slacky for me... Always been studying from 5-11pm, and now, no work to do?? I do last min revision that why, rather there is so much holiday for me to revise my work...

Monday: Holiday

Tuesday: Geography and Physic

Wednesday: Pure Lit

Thursday: Maths Paper 2 and Biology

Eh? My both science paper is next week... Am so slow... And I have 5 holidays straight after that!!! So cool right??? Hahaha... Oh well... Then I will be going to bed then:) hahaha Good night!

050509

2009-05-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

Without good results, life is meaningless???

Had English paper today! Wrote about topic 5. Being a teenager jounery towards N level examination is not easy, discuss. Wow, i remember the question. And I complain and ended up with a very good learning lesson. Haha. I will pity whoever who marks my compo.:)

Now comes with Paper 2, close passage was "OMG!" is this what i suppose to write??! Are these words right?? You know why, cause our practice papers are papers with much difficult words and have to crack our brain, but this it seems like, you can just fill in the blanks simply! Wow.

Passage A is was understandable, about deadly fugu fish? haha it was interesting. But passage B was disgusting!!! What eating rooster testicels can make a women look younger????!!! EWW!! and best, eating Bull testicels can have more healthy sex life style?... And you know what!, Anglo-Indians in the past used to eat fetus for medical reasons... A baby fetus!! Oh my godness!!
So horrible! an unborn child! No way!

Eww! I wonder what will it be like for chinese paper tomorrow...

Got to go:)
Love ya!

030509

2009-05-03T20:59:00.004+08:00

My dear, I am not sure who you are, but when I meet you by the time I hope I am a capable man. Lets live a long and happy life. --- Micky Yoochun

A story that I long knew, would it ever happened to me?
A song that I long knew, would I finally able to sing along?
A sickness that I long knew, would it finally be cureable?
A stupidness that I long knew, would it finally be gone?
A love that I long knew, would it finally come back?

There was this little girl, whose heart was stolen by a boy, never again she has met him till that faithful incident.

Girl: You remember me?

Boy: I wish I could...

Girl: You remember when we were young, we used to play catching and hide-and-seek?

Boy: I wish I could...

Girl: Then do you remember the incident at the airport when she cried in your arms terribly when you about to leave her side?

Boy: No I am sorry, I wish I could

And he walks away towards his friends...

Friends: You know that fat girl?

Boy: I have no idea who the hell is she

Friends: Aww come on, I think she likes you.

Boy: No way, she is just like the elephant in the zoo, who would have that heart to like her?

Friends: Haha, you are right. Lets go and date other prettier and goodlooking girl

But didn't they know, she heard every single thing they said. Thus, she went back home and cried.

Mummy: Baby girl? Are you alright?

Girl: I am fine Mummy.

Mummy: No you are not. Tell me what happened?

Girl: That boy couldn't remember me anymore, he says I am like the elephant in the zoo! Am I like that elephant in the zoo? Am I? Am I?

Mummy: Of course you are not! You are my sweetest baby girl. You know, that boy, he is blinded by everything around him and thus let him be.

Girl: But I can't! He was very nice to me!

Mummy: People can change! So what are you going to do about it? Hmmm? You can change him, and change yourself. I will be beside you and supporting you always....

Then Mummy left, left the girl thinking alone. I think I will go on diet and make him remember me. Each day, she looks for him, glued on him, taking her chance to make this boy remembers her, and when she fails she had to eat 2 apples and 1 meal a day. And of course, Mummy was there for her and cooks only 1 meal a day and buy tons of apples for her...

To be continued:)...

010509

2009-05-01T21:13:00.002+08:00

Falling for you is falling for the stars, so unreachable.

So am apponited as the Student Council President...

So every step I take has to be very careful... And learning how to see things differently and take up new skills to improve myself... Wow... New rules apply... Big role to play... With two difficult situation I have to handle... My N's and My Council...

I MISSED DBSK!!!!!
I MISSED SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!
I MISSED NARIN!!!!!
I MISSED SULIP!!!!!
I MISSED RAYCHEL!!!!!
I MISSED SAREEN!!!!!
I MISSED PEIYUN!!!!!
I MISSED JASMINE!!!!!
I MISSED VIVIAN!!!!!
I MISSED SUNITA!!!!!
I AM MISSING ALL OF YOU ALL AND THOSE I DIDN"T MENTION.....

But what I am badly missing is my oldself.... The one that i know i could laugh loudly, like nobody bussniess, cry like nobody cares, doing things what ever I like, going out with friends and stay up late till very late then come home...

I just missed every single thing about me...

210409

2009-04-21T20:06:00.002+08:00

There are many chances, but chancse only given when you deserve it.

I should have thought carefully, very carefully before agreeing... I don't know isit a good thing, but many friends and Mrs Ho said that is a good thing, that can help me in the future...

But with my character, I just can't take stress, if I do, there will be no happy face when you see me... friends will only see my dull and irritated face, teachers will too be disapponited in me... I really have no idea, really!.... Why didn't I just thought about it?...

"Must believe in your true self when you do things" this is one of my teachers who told me.... I can believe in myself handling other jobs, but this, i have to take up skills over again, learning everything from the beginning, from the baby steps to where I can take everything in my hands and do things in myself...

A part of me says I can, and other part of me says I can't... Maybe I can do, maybe I just not up to it, I don't have it in me... there is so many things I could tell that can pull me deep down... Sigh...

Tomorrow's the thing... I remember I've said something, I promised to HIM... to take whatever things he wanted me to do, because I know HE will be there if I turn to him, you know this phrase is just so true....

"I can do all thing through Him thats strengthen me"

I guessed, and as I promise, I will take it and learn it from baby steps onward....

200409

2009-04-20T19:55:00.002+08:00

Emotions are one thing that is being part of us, it is for us to learn and how to control it...

I am deeply emotional... Very emotional, because I've cried for the Korean drama, it was so much of a romance, so much for a depressing state and it ended up in a very no one one it to be or have it in the ending.

Some thing had me gotten interest in the show is about the Tarot cards. I really wonder what does all the cards means. Oh yea! I can search in the internet. Oh my goodness! Is this how slow am I??? Argh...

Today's monday.... Didn't watch Music Bank, heehee was watching my korean drama;) Seriously, the drama is really awesome, just that some of us may not like the ending.... Really....

Eh... hahaha I can write a poem or a story base on it right?? Yeah! Why never I've think about it?! Will write on 3 person side of view. Can't wait to see what it will ended up like.... hahaha...
I have to put myself in thier shoes, really hard...

Other poem or story I've written, is what I thought of myself, what if I were her, what if I am that girl, how would she feel, there, then, at the place and time? What is she thinking? Is easily for me to write out, cause yeah, I did experience it, but not that hard I've guess...

Now why am I writing everything out here? haha...
I will post it when I am done:)

Have fun waiting:)
Loves, Shannon

160409

2009-04-16T21:05:00.001+08:00

Filled with anger, but can't bear to show it out...

In all my life,
Never have I felt this pain,
This heartbreaking pain…
When I read that she likes you,
My heart totally sank deep inside…
Cause I almost was in love with you.
And this came,
I just went totally blue…
Each day, it passes by,
I’ll try to concentrate in class.
But when I see her and that piece of paper,
Oh how could I let a loud cry…
I kept it all inside of me…
It’s totally heartbreaking and it hurts
How I could cry inside of me…
Then I said I want to give you up to her,
It was pain…
Hurting really bad…
Though, even now, it pain still,
I have to go through it….
Cause she likes you a lot
Though, I love you just as much..

150409

2009-04-15T19:52:00.004+08:00

Failing is just a part of life...

Missed Geo lessons today... Our class really very slow for geo already... I really don't we can make it for Geo for N's... Had no cca session today, that was expected, cause had PFT... After school, went to compass with friends, we laughed our way through, oh my, I never have laugh like this for a long time...:):):)

A simple Story:)

You left me so quiet,

You dissapear just suddenly, like a sprinkle in the air.

Then you suddenly came back to me.

You destory every single thing, cause I able to move on without an ass like you!

And you enter into my life back again. What the Hell is this?

Now you told me I am irritating, and I went away, leaving you, not disturbing you, I am so fine with it. Next hour, you ask "Why? What happened to you? Why are you so quiet?"

And I gave you a scary stare.Then you ask again 'Woah! What's with you?"I got fed up, sick and tired, being like your 'toy'.

I HAVE A HEART! A HUMAN HEART! JUST LIKE YOU! HAVE FEELINGS TOO! and I just walked away...

Next few days, you came wondering why have I changed, why didn't I talked to you? What has gotten into me? So pretending not to be angry, I pretend to turn back to my oldself.

Again! 2 days before my birthday, I asked you, what are you going to get for me, anxious to know, but you straight away shouted at me "Get Lost! Your so freaking Irritating!" with face full of expression of hatered. And I bursted into tears.

"Your such a asshole! This is not your first time! I am not your toy!! Not at all! I am just asking you, what are you going to give me for my birthday! Wanting to know badly! and you shout at me that I am irritating instead! Why are we still friends when you find me this irritating? I am not a fool! You could have just left me there the first time you called me irritating when I already knew the signs you given to me!"

You hurt me real bad, very bad. You Stared at me with open eyes. "From now on, don't ever talked to me. Don't even dare to talk to me. I will pretend I have never met you in my life, forget having a friend like me" and I run off, then you stood there, not moving...

During my birthday, had a 11 stalk of sunflowers, delievered to me, and surprise it was for me, by you... And a note:

" I don't know what I have done, I am sorry for always calling you irritating, I really never meant it from the start. I Didn't know it would hurt that much. I am sorry.

I hope these bunch of flowers will cheer you up. I brought sunflowers for you, as you were always my sunshine, always make me laugh and smile. Without you, my left was simply meaningless. I am sorry for what I have done to you. I am asking for your forgiveness, As I really want to be your friend... I still want to be, I want this friendship to last."

As soon reopen, I forgave you, but you seem different, you became much hotter. Girls were crowding around you, and I can't able to reach to you no matter how hard I tired to get through to you.

Instantly, I gave up, I can't stand it, your different, too different for me to except and quietly, I just left you, Now the sunflowers that I see each time when I get home, is totally meaningless, cold, rotten, meaningless to keep anymore...

And I smiled to myself, by watching it wilter away... Your just a friend who come and go, now i have totally understand:):):)

( Comment it when you read it!:) I'll be gald if you do comment it:))

Take cares!

Loves!

140409

2009-04-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

Its easy to fall, but different to get up.

You know... What I hate myself the most is not to think about myself first but think about others instead... End up I am always the one who getting hurt each time... Well there was nothing in school that I would feel hurt, except for unreasonable people, there is though...

I ask Sulip, Natasha and Adeline : Do I take things seriously? They said "Everything" I mean in what thing or way, is "Everything?" I just couldn't figure it out... In what way do I just take things seriously??

Of course there's a time to play, a time to get serious... But I just couldn't figure it out...

There's alot of things in my head, so If I get white hair, is mostly because of it... Argh... I don't want to grow white hair can...

What should I do for my birthday btw? For all I can comfirm NO CHALET! I always thought how to celebrate friends birthday in a group, but when comes to myself, i have no idea for it, maybe this year, my birthday will be just a simple home kind... how I celebrated my past birthdays...

Sigh... I guess I will just leave it and do nothing, you know, my birthday is like a month away, and am being like this already, guess i won't even be celebrating for it...

Sweet 16... Goodbye...

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2009-04-13T19:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes giving in is the best thing to do:)

So I've finally gave the presents:) I know for some is late... But still I gave cause I felt guilty... But anyway, Happy sweet 16 to you all.

Well, during the first part of the morning, it was normal, NORAML, after recess, Ms Teo kick those who didn't do homework, and all was mostly out of class. Of course i was inside the class. Told ms teo i had some tuition today and is best if i could bring it home and ask my tuition instead.:):) I mean is maths who would not?? Haha

Then is was Lit class, I degraded by 2 marks, argh, form 67 to 65... Thats for CT2 alone though... Tomorrow be receiving CT 2 maths. I have confident this time will die, I mean DIE in that sense. Haha Sigh...

Mrs soon wasn't around so class was abit up to their usual tricks, as always hahaha.

Oh and today, although i was home early, I never watch Music bank today, the songs recently just puts me into gloom mode if you know what i mean, i will just gloom when it comes to a sad song... I can't help it can i?

Haha, and i was too frank today, towards someone, don't even dare to put words into my mouth when i had done the things as i could do as a friend. She saw my glare eyes, Mrs Yoochun saw it many times, because my glare eyes will just stays with me for 15 mins then my wrost attitude towards you will just happily be out..

I've said it many times, you treat me well, i'll do the same to you, you give me the respect that i need, you will have the same respect that i give you. Just as simple as that.:);)

Haha, btw, am i a person who can easily be read through?? Hmmm... Well yeah, i do take certain things seriously isn't that what i should do in certain outcomes??

Anyway, VIVIAN! I FEEL SO GUILTY AFTER SEEING HER PICTURES!! I FALL FOR THE STUPID WRONG GUY!!... Damm it... The feeling just not nice as always! But lucky I didn't fall as hard as the previous one...

Hehe, I should go now:)

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2009-04-12T13:24:00.004+08:00

Like the rain that is falling each day... Am falling even more... for no basic reasons...

Okays... Todays post will be long... Franckly, I was to do something today... But i can't find anything to do today, no, wait, is i have to do something today, but something is just missing... but before i write any further:):)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NARIN! & NATASHA!:):):):)

Yuups... My mood was gone in the morning... really gone... when i woke up, i was shocked, I can't blink my eyes for a bit, too scared that if I did, it will soon fade away... Wondering what isit?... Just soemthing i can't tell...

I manage to get my sense back awhile later...

Mummy: Shannon you better wake up!
Shannon: I already did.
Mummy: How long do you intend to sleep?
Shannon: For the rest of my life.

But mummy never heard that, if she did, she slap my face without hesitation, but i need a slap!Really! I have no idea what wrong with me today, rather since yesterday night, when i was half asleep, or was i too crazy to something that i will never do??

Vivian! I really want a slap from you! To wake up! Seriously! Oh yea! Syrone! Please don't open your mouth about who I like and keep it to yourself okays:) Please... But yea, I like changmin;P
Hope you know what i mean...

Thus what I have learnt is, DON'T DO ANYTHING WHEN YOU ARE HIGH!... Argh... I wanna cry... i really i wanna cry... BADLY! but i just can't!!!

Argh! Forget it! I just write one poem/story here to take away this stupidness in me!...

Am i living in the right world?
Am living in reality?
Am i ready for this?
I just cannot figure my feelings...

But as i knew you longer,
My feelings just fade...
Once you didn’t cared, but now you do,
Once you didn’t notice, but now you do...

You seem to have notice i
alittle more about me
But why i just can’t see the fact?
Am i still scared or what?

I don’t know is true that you began to like me,
But if you were to like me?
What should i do?
How shall i react?

Maybe, your just a crush,
Maybe , your just an admire?
But if it were to happened between us,
What am i to do?
What or how should i react?

But i can’t beat those pretty girls around you and her.

Though times i tired to dress cute for your sake,
I guess, you never really notice.
Just what would happened if you and i together?

I just can’t predict the future ahead of us....
And i don't want to predict the future ahead of us...
_______________________________________________________________

Now am posting my anger... Its 6pm... Coming to an end of Sunday and monday's coming... Am not really angry about it, about another things else....

Now why do I have to bloody care about those who don't care about me? Why should I meet up with people who don't even want me to be there in the first place? Why should I care about you people that used me for some stupid reason! Its so awesome that I finally able to know it! I HATE PEOPLE WHO SHOW THAT THEY CARE BUT DEEP IN THEIR HEARTS THEY ARE JUST TALKING BADLY ABOUT YOU AND HATES YOU...

I shouldn't have gone out with you all since I was young, this is such a dissapointment... Don't even dare to talk to me already, cause i don't want talk to you all anymore... and am so serious about, doesn't mean am younger you all and just ignore me and talk behind my back, am a human have feelings and thoughts...

JUST BLODDY STAY OUT OF MY LIFE IF YOU HATE ME THIS MUCH, THEN YOU DON"T EVEN NEED TO VISIT ME WHEN WE HAVE GATHERINGS. That is just simple, but if you do come, i will just smile at you all, show you the respect, but deep in my hearts you all are wrost then those people who deserve so much love than you all do!:):):) So don't ask me why I have been so cold lately. You people should just know it yourself...

Oh my, I feel so much better now... Okays... I never been this angry before though... hahaha...
But thanks for listening people:) This is another lesson I have learnt today:):)
Don't care for people, if they don't care for you...
This is my way of doing things...
If you treat me well, I will treat you how you treat me:):)

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2009-04-11T23:48:00.005+08:00

True Friends Will Tell You Frankly How They Would Feel:)

Mrs Yoochun! Tomorrow's Your Birthday!:) Haha:)

Today's the Eve Of Easter... It was a three hours mass... I was so glad... Was able to see him though... But its like... Hmmm... He's telling me to give up:P And i already did, although we eye contact a few time after mass... Someone doesn't know about it... Haha..

Syrone, Vivian and me sat a row infront of Sunita and her sister. before the mass, we chatted alot! ALOT!... Haha Monica (sunita sis) She said she feels young again after talking to us:) Your totally welcome!:) But hey! Although we're growing older each day, aren't we still young at heart?:) Hehehe:)

We took tons of pictures after that:) Love it:) hehe...

We'll Stay close and keep contact yeah!:)
Love you all!:)

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2009-04-09T17:01:00.003+08:00

Small words, with Big meanings...

Holy Thursday today... Haha, Last supper... I am so glad too!

I Finally able to figure out... Just so happy:)

I will except what is being given to me, with the strength that what god will help me and lead me by his side...

I will forget you, as there are many other fishes in the ocean that are waiting for me:P And some of them am sure they are better then you...

And lastly...

I will just do whatever that is important now and forget how to love, when love isn't in place for me... right here, right now... at this moment in my life..

Great right? Hahaha...Actually I don't have any idea to write today...

Oh yes! Hip-Hop session in school!... It was so fun, unfortunately, i can't injured my knee... And what I saw.... OMG! Most of us can dance! Haha... Awesome! I really want to participate! I don't care! I will! Next thursday!:P No one can stop me...

You know why? Because the dance steps are from Super Junior! See see... Now you know why i can't help it! Hahaha:P

Mrs Yoochun! I finally upload the pictures here!:) Hahaha

(Me and My best friend:))

Love yea! I can't wait for your baby!!! Pali! Pali! Hahaha

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2009-04-08T20:31:00.002+08:00

Believe in your true self, that is the most important thing.

Am thinking, and still thinking... All answers must submit by monday... Work must submit by monday... And i can't wait to stay up late till 12am tomorrow!! HAHA

Sec one monitor investiture, turn out fine... But guess there is something that i can improved on... Hmmm...

CCA went out just the way I wanted...:) Was so glad everyone hadn't had me dissappointed... Great Job:)

Narin!! I missed you like hell!! Because i was so busy in school i didn't get the chance to talk to you properly!!... We really need to catch up!:)

I SO CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW! We have a HIP-HOP SESSION! HAHAHA... But i won't be doing i guess... But I WANNA DO!!... I bet it be so fun!...

Oh Great, times up... Have to study for Bio... Have CT2 too:)

Wish me all the best:D
Takecares:)

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2009-04-07T19:16:00.002+08:00

Life is like the Flower, while Love is like the Honey...

Today is a very shocked day for me! I Have never once in my life thought "that" and I can do "this"... I am still shocked to death alright... I know I have the potential, but is really not what I think I can do in the first place... Its too too Big for me... Yea... Teacher said that We 4 need the confidence in us. Have to have in ourself, believing your true self...

This is really a Big thing for me... Am still recovering for the shockness...

School was normal... Tomorrow's Sec 1 monitor investiture...:) Congrats...

And tomorrow will have CCA... Very long day... Everyday it seems to long, tired, but as i turn back the clock, it seems so Fast!...

My mind is full of questions, questions, tons of questions!... Is like every questions will lead to another question... So complicated, confused... Just what should I do??

Okays. Cut it out Shannon! Just except it and move on! Think and do what you need to accomplish!!

Pray that tomorrow sec 1 investiture will be just fine... First time doing it... I really have no confident it be a prefect run...

Sigh... This is a one in a life time chance... Oh man!...

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2009-04-06T18:23:00.003+08:00

What ever that comes rounds, goes round, returning the same emotioms...

I JUST REALISE I MISSED YOU BOTH SO MUCH!!! MISSING HANGING AROUND THE TWO OF YOU!!!
___________________________________________________________

I have to draw a line no matter what...
English lesson Mrs Ho Showed us about the maid mistreating the child. It was so terrible! I hate helpers who are so disheartening! They have nothing to do but anger of hatered in their terrible hearts!. Now anger burning within me.
(YOU CAN JUST SAY YOU DON'T WANNA WORK AND LEAVE THOSE INNOCENT CHILDREN ALONE!! JUST TELL YOUR EMPLOYER AND THEY JUST SENT YOU HOME!)

Man! Everytime newspapers always about employer bullying the maid, come on behind their backs who is the one that is being mistreated??...

Terrible... Just terrible... And Oh Great! I injured myself during PE lesson, playing touch ruby, awesome right, hurt my left knee... Doctor wanted me to have 3 days MC, but i can't be absent from school can't I... Have so much things to do and to prepare in school...

And guess what! Watching Music Bank! Hahaha Really one of my favoraite entertainment now... Thanks to Vivian who introduce it to me Last year... At least my life has more enjoyment now:) Hahaha!

I really starting to missed all I have unable to catch up cousins and friends...
remember I still Love you all okays:)

Okays... Bye Bye...
I got to go and rest too:)
wish me well:) Haha!:P

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2009-04-05T15:47:00.005+08:00

You know when it is the right thing to do...

I Have finally watch Boys over flowers finished, but i will still need to watch all over again cause there wasn't any subtittles.

I had alot of thinking done today... Woke up super early because of 3 freaking calls!... But thanks to them i was able to think this much...

Work had properly done. Just left few pieces and bits and everything is done;) Mummy, Daddy ain't you proud of me?:) Lol...

" I want to cry my heart out...
I want to forget everything about you...
I want to live my life like I have never known you before...
I guess it is possible right?

I had fall for you...
I admit it...
I did...

I had began to get interested in you....
I admit it...
I really did...

But I had enough of knowing you, and i want to know you more by myself...
But I couldn't...

Seeing all those pictures of you again as I sat down with my Brother...

" Seeing you this happy with your girl,
I don't want to be the third party that breaks you two up...
I too don't like to be the hated one....
I guess seeing you like this, is better for me to leave this side and forget, pretend
you never once existed in my life....
Wouldn't it be for the better??
Am too not suitible enough for you"

Like this, I begun to realise more... More than I have never expected... Thats is: I can do it, even without you noticing... Cause I don't want to be the Stupid girl who would end up only hurting my heart..."

If love were to flow this way... I just have to let it go aren't I?... Love can't be force, nor with money... If fate will to be there... Let it be and let it flow...

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2009-04-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

Stuggling through the bad times...

Its been 2 days since i last updated. Too busy... You will be shock if you know why...
I feel bad... I don't know why... Normally is always the exco does all these stuff but i am to do now?... Sigh...

Just tell me what potential do I have??

Okays... Stop Saying Shannon, just get over and done with this Job...

Thanks to a few of my friends, i was able to cheered up alittle...
Bigbang "Lollipop" & Kim Joong Wook "Loveable"
Their songs really wow, and can make you smile till you cannot stop smiling...

Palm Sunday today...
Gospel was super long... Can't help it since is the Holy Week...
Was Super lucky too:)

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2009-04-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

Tough Times...

Tough times I never imagine,
Tough times I never been through
But this isn't the toughest feeling I have been through...

Episode 24 and 25 is out! Hahaha.

Opy, how can we eat crap?? LOL! we can eat crab and talk crap but we can't eat crap.:P

Lesson was as usual, english lesson listened to handphone while doing paper:) geography lesson finally moving other than always on the costal, totally glad!:) Hmm... Actually there isn't any much to talk about today...

Oh yes! CCA! Hahaha! 23 members altogether! Am so proud! Haha, finally at least before i step down, able to have a big group of it now:) Too happy!:)

Okays! Am stuck with "Sorry Sorry" now... Argh.. can't get it out of my head!! And am falling for Lee Donghae... Oh my!...

Hahaha... Anyway... Life now should enjoy... Glad am still single...:) Hehehe...

But true love will always come once in a life time...

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2009-03-31T21:44:00.002+08:00

Dreams are like nothing... They are there cause it has always been there to fantasise you.

Alot of people getting weaker... Tomorrow will have CCA... Haha... Mrs Lim was absent... And there was a bee in her class... It was so embrarassing can... Ran in class till Ms charles came and help us... Lol...

And 3 days straight in a roll i dream of you... I don't want my life to be full of you can... I need other dreams back too... All these actions and warmess are fake right? Although my soul was really there?? Am i just crazy or what?! I don't want to be going over for you! Am sick of these dreams of you... Just get out will you??

Talked with Vivian, thanks for her, was able to think clearly...

Thanks gurl!:) Can't escape from going to church no matter what right?... I want to go to masses that i won't see him... He's like a distraction for me... I really don't like it... Thats why I always need to ask my bro... what time masses is he doing?

Crap! Shannon dear! Get a life and Just Stop thinking about it! Dreams and Reality is Different!

Argh... Terrible... Horrible... I don't want to continue dreaming about you when i go to bed tonight... Please... Just let me off....

Goodnight.

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2009-03-30T21:28:00.002+08:00

There are many things we can do out there... Not only just one thing even though we're not good-looking, if only our heart is:)

I have learn many good values during the Boys over flowers drama, still on-going learning though:) Todays is episode 14. But i re-watch again:P I can't help it, really too nice, my eyes had set on it since episode 4 lol.

School was great!:) And the third month of this year has passed, N's are nearing then right? Had geo lesson, Mrs soon came only for one period. Had my test results back... was surprise with my marks though, thought i would get less than 10, but i scored 11/20... Still have to buck up do i...
Sigh... So far, its been a rather great day for me...

Watch Music Bank:) Finally able to stay awake for it, found alot of new songs, and I've started to like Super Junior... Whats their song tittle again? Hmmm "Thats why i like you" and "Sorry Sorry" Its quite addictive... But girls generation has won as the K-chart first hit for like straight 9 weeks! Wow, DBSK wasn't like this... And when will you all be back?! All of your fans been wating to see you all again! Nevermind, I will slowly wait patiently:)

Really had a bad dream, Sulip says that when you dream of something good or bad in it, in reality, you will have something bad or good, is like the oppsite... So i kinda dream something good in my dreams, but it will turn out bad in reality... Sigh... Shouldn't have dream of it at the beginning... It was really sweet though... Missed it....

Anyway, got to go, still in the middle of watching BOF Haha.

Take cares people!
Love ya!

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2009-03-29T21:55:00.002+08:00

Love could last forever if you believe in it right?

Okays. I really need to remember to bring my poem book tomorrow to school. I've done my homework! Yay! Great right?! Haha.

Went to church, attended 11.15am mass, it was so super long! ended at 1pm though. At least i kinda understand the serment alittle haha. Surppose to go out with Vivian later in the afternoon after our homework was done, but didn't weather was hot, but it rain instead...

With such a great weather I slept for awhile... Lol. was still very tired can after using all your brain cells... had a horrible dream...

Anyway, a movie i should recommand:) Sky Of Love:)
Its really a great Japaness movie, i cried because of it, tears couldn't stop...
Should really watch it... I could watch it a thousand times over and over again, it really had moved my heart...

See you all again:)
Byebye
gdnites:)

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2009-03-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

When's theres light, there is always hope around.

OMG! I just got back home, so tiring! Legs gonna break in minutes!! But I had Fun somehow:D

Had AC duty today, starts at 4pm ends at 6.30pm. Was really tiring, but i pity Jasmine she is more exhuasted than me although we have the same duty, she had to double up her duty. She was really great today:) Way to go gurl!:)

Met some ex-students, they became prettier, cuter more lady like... Can i be like them??

Lol, Dream on Shannon!:P

Will be attending 11.45am mass tomorrow...

Anyway be going now:)
Goodbye!

270309

2009-03-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

If Love comes only after enduring Pain, it's time for the Pain to stop after so long.

Hmmm, okays today's friday, as usual, felt like being cheated again, in the afternoon of course. I would never meet him again. This really horrible, regain my trust in him but its being smash all at once. HAHA. Can't be bothered anymore, I don't want to be bothered anymore.

So Shannon, just moved on! Move on like how you used too!

Went to church as usual, I shouldn't have gone, but lucky that I did, didn't able to see his face though, glad:)

Am I caught inbetween two guys?? I think I am...

Crap Shannon, sometimes, is just infactuation... They are more fishes in the ocean... Take time...:)

Okays... Sickness is still up and down... Having stomach aches here and there... Anyway, everything be alright...

Takescares!
Byebye:)

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2009-03-25T21:42:00.003+08:00

Good things come once in a life time, grab it before its too late.

Okays. I've guess friends are mad with me for not attending school... But I've told Jasmine about it, although we're in different classes...

It best to go to school then to slack at home really... I have nothing to do at home but to stare at my empty room, and to use computer...

I guess i would die earlier?? No surprise if i were to get dengee or something... Lol...

But if i were to die now... It be too early for me to do so... But if fate were to be like this, guess i have to live if it when the time comes right? But if i want to die, i guess the best way to die is to sleep and die... Thats the most peaceful death i guess... Haha

Fever have been up and down since the past few weeks, suddenly these few days having bad headache, no idea what is due to... next guess be vomiting?? If thats the case, I guess the next 2 months or so be ending up in the hospital hahaha... My life is so uncertain, but it can be when I know the symtoms...

Really dead today... Life is so liveless without friends around, thats why am so greatful that i have true friends around me sometimes:)

Got to go...
Be going to school tomorrow...
Byebye!

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2009-03-24T20:20:00.002+08:00

The pen is mighter than the sword...

I am so pissed of... I cried for the freaking ep 14 of BOF... Irritating! And i couldn't stop!!
Can you guys just stop playing with our girls heart, and leave us alone if you all intentionally didn't intent to fall in love but to bloody play our pure innocent heart??

Am really sick and tried of this... REALLY!!! Argh!!

My mood is horrible now... So horrible that i could really scream and shouted till my lungs fall out or get sore or whatever will happened... Terrible!...

Stupid Gu Jyupyo! Don't make Jandi fall for you from the start! Your the one who started it! Man! So angry la...

School was so far okay till travel and toursim part.. Half my class didn't attend no wait 3/4 of my class didn't attend for the moedule course... Big trouble for them... Sigh... Cold war isn't it??

Anyway, revenage isn't the right thing to do right? Lol...

P.S. If sorry can be accepted, but does police need to be around??

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2009-03-23T20:27:00.003+08:00

God has everything being plan for us, nothing we can do to change it..

OMG! I was really sleepy during school, i couldn't even concentrate and am dead for geo...

How can I get 15/20?? although we're in group one?? Argh... bet we'll be moving to group 2,

so... Hi group 2!, Bye group 1... Sigh....

Then stayed back for council duty... As for it, Jasmine and I are always buddies together, with every duty, we're doing them toegther:) Haha:)

After that i went back home, i serech for Junsu girl photo and I found it!! hehehe!!

And all of them Look cute!

Micky Yoochun! Sexy! XD

Kim Junsu:) Hot! XD

Shim Changmin Kawaii!XD

Jung Yunho, Very lady like:) XD

Jae Joong, SexyXD!

They are just way too Beauitful right? I would turn into a guy for them...

But i better not... I rather stick with what I have...

Hahaha, later got to spend money, alot of money to give the girl something... if not everytime, she ask you to buy... Pocket got big hole already... HAHA

SO am lucky to be a girl as well:) Will take them as my Idol!:) Hehe

Anyway, will be going!:)

Lolx.

Take cares!

220309

2009-03-22T21:31:00.007+08:00

When's theres love, there's always something positive thats happening...

It's already the 22nd is already one week holidays over!! So fast!!

I've finish my homework! Hahaha. If only I could finished it earlier... Sigh...

AND I've fallen for JUNSU!!

I've told Rin, She was shocked.

Rin: You seriously fell for Junsu? Seriously?! You don't like changmin anymore?...

He just propose to you for goodness sake! Haha! What did Junsu did that make you fall for him?

Shannon: The more you look at Junsu, the more cuter he is... His hottest just stands out when you just stare at him... sigh Changmin got the Top face alittle...

Wondering where does the propose thing come from?? We just create a story like what we girls would normally do till we find the right guy... Haha... Sometimes fantasy is better than reality but i perfer both? What we choose always have a Advantage and Disadvantage right??

Agh!! What do i do?? Sigh..

I MISSED ALL OF YOU!!

MUST TAKE CARE OKAYS!!

WE SHALL ALL GO OUT AGAIN YEA:D

Tomorrow is monday... wonder what will it be like when we head back to school again:)

Anyway, got to go:)

Tc:)

210309

2009-03-21T22:51:00.002+08:00

I'am loving every moment of my life without regrats...

I know it's lame, but I FINALLY STEP INTO COMIC CONNECTION!!! HAHA SO HAPPY!!..
Its been 2 and a half months since I last step into one alright.... and I bought 4 books... all from the same Aurthor though:D:D

Went to church, it was father noel chin, i seriously don't understand what he was saying during the serment, only adults would understand.. He was saying about puppy love and mature love... that mature love is something very significant other than puppy love, something that teenagers like us never go through... I really have no clue what isit... oh well... then he talk about mothers love... that mothers has the most important role... Is really true...

Thats why, I LOVE YOU MUMMY! THANK YOU FOR GIVING BIRTH TO ME AND SHOW ME THE WORLD:) LOVE YOU!!:)

Haha i also love my dad, i love everyone!! hahaha even one that is part of my life now...:)

Tomorrows the sunday, guess will be sleeping the way through?? WAIT! No... got to wake up early... Oh well... Haha.. more homework that needs to be done!

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2009-03-20T23:02:00.003+08:00

Friends you have, are to be treasured...

I love my friends!! I missed you all so much!! Can't wait to see you all again... I missed all our enjoyment in class... missing, missing... HAHA

Anyway, holiday isn't like holiday. home work, homework, and tons of homework, left with Bio and Lit... wah... is like eveyday is one subject on one day... Oh well, at least i have abit of play time and freedom hehehe..:)

I didn't go church today.. intent to go... but since mom and dad ain't going so do I:) I always follow my parents whenever they not (NOT ALWAYS) and you can consider that today am lucky... (to those who don't know why, too bad, to those who know why, good for you...SHH:))
I kinda miss alittle... saddening... anyway, without that i also can live a proper life...

and i found my ring!!! so glad can!!! missing for like a week la... i found it! i found it! i found it! hehehe! My most perious ring...:) i will never lose you again *mucks* Haha...

okays... Lastly... am warning to those who are L again, don't tell me you are L as long as my heart knows, it alright, but when you do, friendship will just end like that... SERIOUSLY:) Now you know why i don't want to talk or stand close to YC

Anyway, got to go:)
Take cares!
see ya!

poem...

2009-03-18T20:24:00.002+08:00

Okays... Forgive me... I have nothing to write today...
Really weak... Too tired to move... Haven't recover yet...
Anyway, I written something today... I don't think is a poem though...
But i written base on a guy point of view through a comic book.... I hope you all don't mind....:)

When would you be back?
How long do i have to force myself to love someone i don't?
When will i hold you again?
When will be able to kiss you again?
When will i be able to hold your hand again?
Seeing you being held by someone else, Fire just burst out of me instantly.

I miss you dearly...
I missed your smile, your lovely smile,
I missed your eyes, your beautiful eyes,
I missed your laughter, your contagious laughter,

I missed your sweet kisses, kisses that I would lead,
I missed your gentleness, gentleness that shakes my heart,
I missed your kindness, kindness that showed am proud to be your boyfriend,
I missed your cleverness, cleverness knowing what am thinking,
I missed your sweetness, sweetness that i could just eat you up each time,

But, I missed you love, your love that pulls me up each time I fall...
You were mine, but i've lost...

I need you back deeply...
I want you back evermore...
I love you more each day has passed...
My hunger, My thrist grows wanting you back...

I love you, but how am I to express it?
I miss you. I want you...
Thinking about you, every hour, minutes, seconds, days!
Just wanting, waiting for you to get back in my arms...

But I need to settle mine...
Don't fall deeper for him... Please...
I am deeply missing you, deeply loving you...

(Please comment it! As this my first time writing it though... Thanks:))

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2009-03-17T18:50:00.002+08:00

Forgetting isn't a reason to except it...

Okays... I didn't went to camp for 2 days, having fever and bad flu that i came home after camp the day before today...

Camp was really different this year, how i wish i could over night. Sleeping and bonding with my juniors, right? right? right?

Sigh but i went home...

Woke up at 10, did homework till 1pm... slept to 3, ate lunch, till alittle things and back to sleep till 6pm... Rin called, talk to her.

And seriously Rin, sometimes i wanna slap that girls face, feel like telling her straight off, you really wanna get hurt more than just sitting with her in class?? I hope you still know that am still playing along with them... I can't stand it anymore, when you see am about to burst thats it... We told her once, she doesn't want to change, Now she is back, we created the story she thinks its fun, yea is fun, but when she does that i really want to slap her face, although she wants attention, attention can be just anything, but don't over can. I have my limits too. I do and I don't showed it, if i do, am already in the warning mood, anymore, your just totally dead, if they don't like me, forget it, am not their who ever, but they won't have friends in life if they still continue to behave this way. It saddens me, but why do i feel sad for them?. They have no brains! They don't know what is right, what is wrong... Am already brusting into flames... Arghh!

Anyway... This is sickening! We're already 16 and still behaving like this... Sigh... True that Life is not a bed of roses...

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2009-03-15T21:46:00.002+08:00

Flow like the wind... You able to get where you are...

Am really not in a mood today, No my whole is not in a mood. Don't ever ask why i don't know why too. if i do i would have said it, am pissed totally pissed...
Well Sports day Our house won. Great! Haha 7 years right??

Hmm not bad though... Watching DBSK, they made me alittle more cheery:)
Hehe. they always bring laughter to our face... am so gald to fall for them... Hahaha
And am falling all over again for Changmin... Lol... Can't help it

Tomorrow be CCA camp! 2 days 1 night. Really wonder what it be like for this year... Hmmm....

Got to go, need to pack,
See ya!

120309

2009-03-12T21:16:00.002+08:00

The impossible is always the possible...

Okays... Just reached home! Had PTM duty, it was fun yet tiring, haha.

You know what! My holidays ARE NOT HOLIDAYS! I have camp, thats is fine, extra lessons, all is normal, but having Tons of homework is not VERY good.

True that some of our results are not that well, need practice, but like, homework is way too much. i don't think i could even finished up. Really.

Tomorrow will be our sports day! Haha can't wait, i wonder which House would win this year! Hehe:) Hmm, hope is St Elizabeth again:) Sport day will begin at 1.30pm, so guess what we're gonna do in the morning?, hmm, well, we're gonna have mass, and after that gospel singing:) and dismissed after that. Cool right. lolx.

Anyway, after tomorrow it be a week of holiday, so i have to play hard work hard right? Yea.

Okays! Its 9pm! Listening to K-pop! hehe.:)

Takes Care!
See ya!

110309

2009-03-11T21:59:00.002+08:00

God will always make away, when your totally in lost.

I am so greatful to this person who conduct our CCA session today. I didn't plan anything, really i am always with school work this and that, really busy, i have to manage my time SERIOUSLY!!

Really thank you Johnathan, and your really a GREAT singer, love your voice! don't worry about being out dated:) Thanks! I've guess i have owe you for this.:)

CCA camp is coming, have to prepare alot of things. Sigh.

Anyway, overall school was still alright, still surviving. Haha. Living to it, but i can't wait for april!:) Haha.

Hearing K-pop now, missing K-pop songs, didn't be able to catch up with all my hobbies now, saddening. Hmmm as i've said before, want to aim something, always need _____ you know what isit.

Haha, kkays!
Be going then:)
That reminds me, tomorrow will be a long day. Oh well. treasure secondary life. lol.
Bye!

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2009-03-10T21:17:00.002+08:00

Needless to say, your nothing to me anymore...

Our course today was really really out of our comfort zone. I don't normally talk infront of big crowds, but small groups? Isn't it the same? Sighs.

I NEED TIME TO PRACTICE AND PRACTICE TO MAKE IT PERFECT!
(just like maths)
But no one is perfect.

So what we did for the course today?
We talk and talk, practice, practice with large crowd of people around. Thats all.:)

And when it ended, walking with Jasmine along the hallway, YC just suddenly ask me "Did you see the girl waving at?" and i was like, "What?" that shocked expression, yes, there was girls in the hall, practicing their cheerleading for sport day, this coming friday. With my kind of expression, She seems frustrated and start asking me like that kind of piss off tone, " Was that girl waving at me or you?" in my mind i was like "HELLO! WHY WOULD I LOOK AT THEM? AM NOT INTERESTED" and i told her, " No, i don't know, you might wanna ask them?" and i think she really did.

What a girl! I really laugh my ass off, Jasmine was there, she heard everything, lolx.

I think am really feeling better after awhile, so gloomy after recess. Sometimes, i wanna be alone, i don't know why. Things are just different lately. If i have change, bear with me. Thanks.

got to go,
see you all:)

090309

2009-03-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

Wish you were once here...

I think am having a fever after so long... Argh... Don't like to be ill! Why, when i want to be ill, i can't get ill, and times that i don't want to be ill, and i am ill? Man, what wrong with me?!

First few lessons in the morning was really horrible, classmates were sick, and nearly half the class went home during recess. Wow. I too wanna go home! But eventually stayed in school till 4.50pm then returned home. Raychel, Sulip don't forget my pocket stuffs:)

Had SS retest today, don't feel like talking about it, but am i talking about it? Forget it.

How can i forget my Korean Music Bank!! and i just realise it 1 hour ago!! So not happening!, My day been bad, real bad. But at least i manage to settle somethings off in school:) Right Jasmine? hahaha, we finally made our minds. Haha!

Now, Waiting for 9pm to arrive:) Really can't wait! Episode 7 today if am not wrong:)

Haha, be going:)
Takecares
Seeya!

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2009-03-08T21:41:00.004+08:00

Real friends stays with you for the rest of your life...

Vivian! You owe me! You left me alone! But i can't blame you, am keeping it a scercet. Today i went to chruch, alone for mass, saddening, one by one all say cannot come. Sigh. Nevermind, i have to get used to it, all in a pair except for 1, and am loving my single life away. Haha.

Collect my Certs! So glad, the cert was awesomely nice too:) And i was the first to arrived and collect them, next came Sunita and Sheena:) So glad to see them again. I really miss cat class friends, and i am still missing the whole class. Haha. Then i went for mass alone.

Came home about 1 plus, talk to Vivian, Girl who slept ay 6am and woke up at 1.45pm. Talk all the way till 4pm and in the end, i was surpose to call back, but i slept for 2 and half hours. Haha, take back my sleep. Lol

Then i used my com all the way. Haha. I still did my homework okays. Haha. Along the way, met 2 guy, both of them are nice people and they are best buddies too. I guess it's nice to share a room with all your best friends, it be so nice. They are from US though. Haha.:)

I missed DBSK, and their new Single this year is COOL! Haha. I really love Changmin in there. The tune, the song is just so catchy:)

Okays got to go,
See ya again!

070309

2009-03-07T20:21:00.002+08:00

The Sun will never stop Shining,
The Rain will never stop Raining,
The Snow will never stop Falling,
But will our Heart will never stop Growing??

Okays! It been days since i last wrote... I seriously had nothing to write these few days...
actually i do know what i want to write, but it be too boring to write over the same thing over and over and over again... Right? Haha...

Let me write a short post on what i did:

Wednesday: Finally manage to start Raisin in the Sun, and went for Sport heats Duty after that. Thats why tuition was cancel.

Thursday: We had change SS teacher! Wait have i mention this before? No right? And yea, we had our SS teacher changed... and you know what, is one of our school's DM. Cool right? But, through her teaching i observed for this 2 weeks, i realize she is more on the Example type, and Mr Vicknesh is more on the Story on what had happened and all. Hmmm, anyway, it wasn't that bad as i thought it wold be;)

Friday: We had our friday the shortest days:) It was awesomely cool! Haha, but Mr Vicknesh came back to school today, so we had SS lessons with him, but wait!! Who is our SS teacher gonna be now?! Man, how many SS teacher will we have this year?? Sigh, i just don't care how many, but i just hope that we able to get something from our SS lessons...

And finally back to today! Haha:) Oh, wait, and i went for stations of the cross and yea... But i am so glad, but isit a happy thing or a sad thing?? Wait! Now, what kind of feeling i am having?? This is so not good!. I don't want to have. Argh!.. I shouldn't have started it, regret it now... Hmmp!...

Went to Novena chruch early morning, then went to salon, but didn't do my hair, actually there wasn't a need too, just love this hairstyle!:) Haha. And went home slept through till 3plus, didn't go to 6pm, but attending 11.45am, i always do that. Oh yes! I'am getting my Confirmation Cert tomorrow, can't wait! Haha So thats what i did for today:) boring isn't it? Hey, but at least there is something to be happy about:) You know, without happiness, you life means nothing:P Haha.

See ya again! ByeBye!:)

030309

2009-03-03T21:52:00.002+08:00

Every seems like a dust to me, gone into thin air...

I have nothing to say,
words are only with tears that will fill my eyes.
Why do i always have to think of you,
Why does my life become so different when you came in...

My hand is just as numb to write...
My feelings just won't go through to you no matter what i do...

To pass my life today, i kept a fake smile, i kept everything.
Today to cheer a friend up, who was down, it take me great courage, and led me memories of you. It was painful, to bear with the trip and my past of you.

If only, i never knew you, my life really be so much better.
My day had been a total... because of you...

Although i had fun, but nothing compares to the bloody hurt you freaking gave me...

010309

2009-03-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

Once told, twice as shy....

Okays... i have to say all my anger out... I HATE guys who lie! Really!, I HATE them!
(lie after lie, how long do you want to lie?)
And yes, i am angry with myself! i have no idea what i did, no idea what the hell was i thinking, and in the middle of nowhere, in the car, i blurted out his name...(I Blurted out your name!, Your Freaking name!) I hate myself for this.. like hello! i don't even know you, and i blurted out like that, so embaressing! Please!

And now why do i have to bloody care so much? (You already have a girlfriend! So shut away from my life!) but it takes time, so i can't...

Dam it la!, Does it always have to happen this way? Watch Boys before flowers, Sulip, Rin been bugging me to watch, and I CAN"T WAIT FOR EPISODE 4! haha! So glad!:)

Tomorrow my day will be filled with much drama and entertainment;) 5.50pm Music Bank,
and 9pm, Boys before flowers, episode 4:)

Haha, got to go
See you all again:)

2009-03-01T18:43:00.002+08:00

Looking at you from afar,
really made me wonder, am i mad?
Never have i look at you in this way,
Never have i look at any guy in the way,
Am i insane or what?

Why are you so attractive?
Why are you so fabulous?
Why are you so humble?
Why are you so famous?
Questioning myself each time,

Your a sweet guy that i just know,
Nothing in how you've lived,
Your just an idol that I admire
And I am just a fan of yours that you never knew.

Sometimes I just wonder myself,
Why do I like a guy that i don't even talk to,
or not even once know?
But I know you isn't it? But not really knowing you right?
Am i silly? Am i crazy? Am i stupid? Am i an idoit?
This thing just make me go nuts!
Nuts because i like you, as a fan, and i don't really seem to care...
Althought it does hurt looking you from afar, how i wish you were just once near me....

250209

2009-02-25T20:43:00.002+08:00

Nothing hurts me, except a single goodbye...

Okays! Today i passed my day with a breeze:) Mrs law didn't came for 3 periods, so we talked and slack at the same time, but had one period of Literature:) And one free period of Maths:)
Next was geography! Haha, know what I passed by geo! So glad, but Mrs soon said that THIS IS JUST THE STARTING, yes i agree that this is a starting oh well...

After school had English as I have said i wrote Topic 6, about "How had Singapore Ression has affected me" anf for this question only 3 person wrote it. Cool right? lol. after that had to rush for CCA and i have 7 new comers!:) Isn't is awesome? And you know what? My sec ones isn't this bad SO FAR, but not sure how will they jump over my head. Sigh. But from what i see is that, they are really nice people.:)

Thunder, lightning and Rain super terrible today! End CCA at 5.10 and manage to get out of school at 5.30pm. So long! And rush to mass after that.

And he served, he served! But i really prefer him with glasses, but i bet he wore contact lens was for his girlfriend, or for someone to see? but without his glasses really look like half girl from afar, but with his hair style that so much like a guy, really made me think otherwise, but really i am saying the truth, no offence:) But he served! Man!

Haiya, don't care anymore. Not gonna care, will be going for 11.45am mass:) Hehe:)

Be going!
see you all again tomorrow!:)

240209

2009-02-24T20:29:00.002+08:00

Like the lion falling for the lamb...

Okays! Todays the tuesday! Haha, I've passed my Maths, and Literature, for now, So happy!:)
Haha, fabulous, but have more result as days are to come, having English CT tomorrow too, and need to rush for CCA after that. Sec ones will be joining us! Haha, better than none. Oh yes, tomorrow is Ash Wednesday. Promise Aunty to do it, and i have to do it. I will do it, at least have to mins 10plus yea?...

Today too, after school, went for heats. Left the school nearly 2, and start the race nearly 4 and end at 5pm. So cool right? haha so during the 1 hour of free time, Jamine, Mel and Merilyn had lots of laugh, we talked and talk about one another, haha so funny to tease Merilyn! haha, you'll will never get tired, seriously! if but no topic to talk then really you get tired by staring the the beautiful rain:)

lol, after heats, decided to went for Elective course:) since there is half an hour left to 6pm:) We are so nice right? still go for course after the heats. Haha. And i missed you too Mrs Ho! and Mr Kalist? Sorry if i am wrong, But there are so welcoming insturctors! They are so absolutly nice!:) Welcoming us back with open arms!:) So sweet right?, they will be my Travel and Tourism insturctors i will NEVER forget!:)

And now I am home, home sweet home, full of comfort:) Tomorrow will be a long day as well. But I just hope that everything will go as smooth as possible:)

Love you all!:)
See ya again:)

230209

2009-02-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

Falling in love is like your falling for the stars at night...

Argh!! My Geography test was manageable, but i lose 1 mark!!! My stupid careless mistakes!! the bearing was to be 45 degree and you know what i wrote?? i wrote 55 degree!! Argh!! My one mark gone! Gone in and instant!!! Man!

Sigh, Narin cheered me up, thanks girl! Oh yes! And she gave me something so sweet! I really love it! (Thank you, this gift you given me, will be treasured by me, and i will use it wisely:) Thank you.:)) She is only girl, who gave me what a 16 year old would really wanted:) And sulip thanks for your Vday gift too, These two gift will really, really treasured by me. The rest, thanks for the chocolates too:) Haha.

After school, Mrs Yoochun, Kimberly and Me, went crazy, we study in school, laugh, cry, (Okay i cried not them) and laugh again. Tears of sadness gone, but some still remain part of me. I bear to let go.

Went home about 4.30, missed my Music Bank!!, i didn't really missed, just that i couldn't watch cause my mom stuck with the Goong, (Jie, i need my Goong back!! Urgently!!!) So i watch, and missed my show, sigh got to watch for 6 more days again. and Now we have K-pop songs!! haha at least i won't missed that okays:) Hahaha!

See you all again!:)
Love ya!

220209

2009-02-22T20:48:00.004+08:00

Laughter always fills your sadness with joy...

Hello! I am super delighted today!:) DBSK just make my day! They always bring you joy no matter what, isn't that sweet?:) I just love them!:)

Had went for 11.45am mass with Vivian, and I forgot to take my ring back... Gonna miss my ring for one week... I didn't see him today... but I saw him after that... Totally a turn off after that... My face just went totally black, and my day was destoryed...

Intend to go to IMM to buy things or shop around since there wasn't really anything to be done, other than my homework or CT for tomorrow. So i stayed at home, studied my way through, as well as texting Mrs Yoochun, till evening... Then my day went better:)

All thanks to DBSK, that brings so much laughter:) Love you all very much!:)

210209

2009-02-21T21:26:00.003+08:00

Love can be so funny...
Love can be so sweet...
If both parties... Can take things easily...

Today was so super rush... After remedial rushed to woodlands to donate to Vivian, only donated $2, but in the end, i donated $6.10!! Okay, wanted to buy comic book one okays... but i had to rush home, cause had somthing on. In the end, i didn't go out...

So i slept throughout, didn't go to church intend to go 11.45am one. So didn't see him. Haha. I think i will always go for 11.45am mass. Haha.

Today, actually got nothing much to write. No poem to write too.. Guess my day super bored.. Haha. shall see you all tomorrow.

200209

2009-02-20T19:41:00.003+08:00

When you fall, pick yourself up and move on...

Okays! Today didn't do must in school just that recess had to run rounds! Haha make-up sessions of course. Hehe. 2 more make-ups to go;)
Promise to hand out with Mrs Yoochun, and Aj, but last min remembering had to go Aunty Angela place for appointment.. Hehe, man! I really going to have STM...

At Aunty Angela place, she took my measurements and all, and she talk about the courses, and go with my character, and this reminding me of my yesterday task that i surppose to do or had done, but due date is in 2 weeks time, so could still take my time... I think... Haha...

Aunty also warning me alot of things, and said that i would struggle abit here and there if i were to take hotel and leisure management... Hmmm as well as oversea courses... I have to plan everything now, but still my choice is to go through O's and move on from there. I really want to:)

So as promise, I went home did and plan what i should be doing, then i slept for 2 hours, woke up at 6.30pm and rush myself to watch Goong, but as i turn on the TV, i realise that it was 5.30 and not 6.30pm, and my mom laughed at me. Okays... i wasn't really awake yet with eyes half close kays...:P haha.

Then wasted time on KBS World, but it was not wasted at all, i saw DBSK on TV, not all of them, didn't see Changmin and Hero, thats saddening... But Yunho was voted the first most handsome Guy then followed by Xiah Junsu:) Haha. After that was "Who would want to marry??" Junsu was the first to be shown then followed by Micky:) Isn't this sweet?? hahaha I would love to marry Junsu, but my heart already given to Changmin (Okays Shannon!! Wake Up!! Stop dreaming!! Come back to reality!!)

Sometimes, i just prefer Fantasy, i mean really, you can imagine a hot guy standing beside you and all (If you are single) , Guys in Sg some are not there yet, some are cute, and only some are good looking, so is really hard to find good looking guy in Sg... Anyways... I don't have time to look for good looking guys too, what comes my way, i just have to decide, if they don't like it then too bad... (I think i have become meaner... Opps!) Like they always says, girls grow stronger after each Crisis we face:)

Talked to Vivian in the early morning, and thank you for reminding me:) Sometimes is good to have close friends to lean on:) Haha. And OPY, must take care of yourself okays, you've really have grown weaker this year, although you too have become alittle cheerful, sometimes is not good to force yourself:) Sometimes, friends like all of you, i really can see through what you all are hiding:)

P.S: Live your life to the fullest, and don't hurt yourself anymore:)

Okays! see you all again;)

poem

2009-02-20T19:32:00.002+08:00

The first time we met,
I've never felt anything like this before,
My eyes was just set on you,
face blushing deep red...
Uttering the words when talking to you...
am i in love???

The way you talk,
The way you walk,
The way you look,
The way you moved,
just amazed by them all...

You made me blush,
You made me dazed,
You made me hot,
You made me laugh,
You made me smiled,
You made me cry,
All these reaction i could only make is when i am around with you...

Replacement of Vday

2009-02-19T21:10:00.012+08:00

Valentine Day:)
Okays!! Photos are here.

Okay, this will be a replacement for Vday.
Okays, These are the pictures you all wanted, so don't ask anymore, yea, yea, Hahaha.

190209

2009-02-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

For a moment you made me feel like one...

My mood was really bad in the morning, had Chinese CT, I don't understand a single thing! I am sorry, but my chinese is really in the depth of the ocean, if you know what i meant, after that, had biology, i wanna cry already! made 2 careless mistakes, gonna fail my science already!!, already flunk my physic... This is really so not happening! Really, these few days, i really find sec 4 days are really extremely extremely tiredsome... Like your energy had been taken away...

As for Social Studies Lessons, Mr Vicknesh is AGAIN ABSENT from school, (our class is already sick and tired of you not coming to school, and how will our SS lesson be??) Man! So for the FREAKING 2 periods we stayed at canteen talked, study, talk and study?? wasted 1 hour of lesson, cool right?? Not when your having N's.

CD lesson had to report to gym, and theres a talk by Mrs Cherry Lim, our favourite Biology teacher, (Sorry that i made careless mistakes during the paper) she talk about how we go about finding our suitable course that might be our liking. Yupps, after that Mr Chris Chang took over talk about SGC (Singapore Graduation Certificate), after all, we all had to do assignments for both talks.

Lucky I have no CT tomorrow! Able to go back home early! Haha! And i will able sleep my life away tomorrow:)

Today, had some free time, i really missed DBSK songs, so played all their songs over again, of course, plus other korean songs la, although i am their fan, i still like other bands too;)

Okays, i shall end here... See you again:)

poem

2009-02-19T20:12:00.003+08:00

As i sat within this seat,
thinking back about the past,
never my life have i found my feelings so complicating...

What a laugh it could have been...
but as i sat, i smiled to myself and cried...

never have i cried this horribly,
never have i cried continuiously...
never have i cried, till my tears were no more...
how terrible, how terrible have i just realise...

All from the beginning, you plan it all...
to make used of me, as you know i am soft,
to make used of me, as you know i always give in
to make used of me, as you know i am stupid,
to make used of me, as you know i am an easy person to fool with...

Through this day, i have made up my mind,
no more will i ever be kind to you,
no more will i ever be soft to you,
no more will i ever give in to you
no more will i ever be fooled by you
no more will i ever be friends with you...

This is the end...

So this is the end, my dearst friend, you made used of me, you will never fool me again
Within in poem that i am writing, i hope you know who you are...
I had enough, i really meant it, your a friend i had cherish, but i don't think you need me to treasure this friendship anymore... Farewell...

180209

2009-02-18T22:17:00.002+08:00

I will flow where my hearts would lead my feelings to...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR SHIM CHANGMIN!

Today is changmin birthinday, isn't it sweet? but as a big fan of his, i've as i've failed... I don't really know what to do, or to think what to do for him, i thought of writing a card, but can't, cause he is in korea, sigh, this is no fate, therefore it shows that i am only his fan, no matter what, i will still admire him:)

So happy birthday Mr Shim, remember this fan of yours okays?:) Haha.

Nothing seems right today. YEAH! Had Literature CT, it was manageable, but i can't put an answer to it? But it was half an hour? I thought it was to be 45min though, anyways, can't turn back time.And Sulip! what happened to you?! How can you forgot to bring your geography and your worksheet at the same time??.

Hmm, so yea, we had the wrong information about the ITE, after N's we'll be going for the nite-tech, not the higher tech, higher tech is for girls who took O's and so fort. And die die will have to do 3 years in ITE, 3 years in poly and 2 years in Uni i think?? not sure... anyway... after certain thoughts...

I WANT TO TAKE O's AND I WILL TAKE O's! I WILL JUST BLOODY STUDY HARD FOR IT!
I WANT TO SET MY LIFE UP FOR NOW AND CONCENTRATE... MAN! I WILL JUST NEED TO SCARIFICE EVERYTHING!

Just will i able to do?? So much confusion, Why does it always have to be my batch to change the ways, and all?? WHYWHYWHY!!!! 5 SUBJECTS UNDER 19 POINTS!! and the They should know not all students just good in MATHS! and must pass english and maths and 3 other subject to get to O's... Man! Although i am somehow good in both, but why can't think about other students who is slower than us but also in the NA stream?? Man! Singapore is just too advance, i wonder in 6 years time, how will eveything be like in Singapore, A place where i grew up since young, alittle stress here and there, but it seems like Singapore will soon be a working world, thus this will led to woman who would forcus on their career more than giving birth, so if singapore has low population, is not our singaporean fault as singapore is already or already taking things too fast.:( This is really saddening... Sighs I just wish everything can just go back to where, my old singapore had been...

There won't be any poem for today... Sorry...
See you all again:)

Once again, happy birthday mr shim:)

160209

2009-02-16T23:38:00.002+08:00

Like the wind, i flow with wind, to where it will leads me too...

Entertaining, yet stressing was it today...
Our class didn't know there was a common test for SS after school, till this morning, and we don't have SS lesson today! Paper willl just eventually being flunk!! Argh!! Everything was being informed last min, really hate it.

And these few days weather is just so strange, in the morning it was so hot that i could die, and wanting for heavy rain, instead, after SS paper it seems the opposite ways! Wanting for the weather to rain, it wouldn't rain, and wanting the weather to be just hot it will just rain! And this led rather reminded me or remembered that i forgot to bring my school umbrella that i borrowed lasr thrusday! So terrible and tomorrow i just wonder how will the weather be like. And yes, having bio CT too. Hope it push up my science overall, failed my physic already... Sigh... Terrible...

Okays! Enough for the terrible side, when will i see my best buddies getting rather agreeing to the confession???!!! (I AM WAITING FOR YOUR ANSWER TOO YOU KNOW, I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU SAY TO HIM AND HOPE YOU"LL AGREE TO IT IF NOT BOTH WOULD HURT BOTH PARTIES:() Isit hard to except certain things? Although i agree there is always a advantage and disadvantage, guess it up to them to decide since it the ones they will be holding it together for years right?

After school head to compass with Sulip, Narin, Sareen and Ziting to slack for alittle while. Man! Sareen just love eating ice!! Went to cupwalker, Narin brought her drink, then went to comic connection to see one of my books out yet, but then i eventually brought 2 other books instead, (When will i ever stop buying comic books? Oh My). Later, went over to sembawang shop, Mrs Yoochun said that they might have DBSK album, thus i told her, "Cover my mouth, don't let me scream, cause i will when i see them." AND I SCREAM, but Narin help me, but still some of the passaby stared at me. MIROTIC DISC JUST OUT AND ITS PRICE OF 16.90!!! HAHA
I am so gonna get it! Haha. Mrs Jung, you may buy your beloved Yunho as both have dvd and vcd. hahaha i think is so cool!.

But i nearly forgotten about Music bank, how saddening, but i was in time to watch okays! Haha but DBSK wasn't in any of the K-chart, thats is very saddening instead. Yupps, and all the singers have their new songs out, i still perfer SS501 "R U Man." Is more like them then singing "I' m Dumb"

Awhile later, Talk to spencer online, i was just awaken only. So my mind wasn't working, only now then it is haha sorry. It was a normal conversation. Peiyun and please don't hurt yourself anymore, if not i have to support you everytime. Actually i don't mind la, but you have to be more careful next time thats all:) Jia you for competition kays:)

Okays! todays a long one. Hope everyone is okays with it;)

P.S Vivian, i need help with uploading the photos:) Haha. Thanks for always being the kind soul, but sometimes make up your mind fast kays:)

See ya!

2009-02-16T19:46:00.001+08:00

The feeling of summer,
Is like the hot blazing fire.
The feeling of Autumn,
Is like the never-lasting end.
The feeling of Winter,
Are like the snow, pure and innocent.
But the feeling of spring,
Is like the fresh, a new life again,
Something that can’t be describe.

And you know love feel where??

Is all of them.

Love is like the hot Summer,
At a glace, you fell really deep.
Your face burning up, with read hot cheeks.

Love is like the Autumn,
That is ever-lasting, that it could never be disappeared
From your heart.

Love is like the Winter,
It’s pure and innocent, that love could lead to something uncertain.

While love is like the Spring,
The pinkish feeling of loving someone and a fresh feeling.
Having a new love again, after we fall the love before,
After all, love is something that is undesirable,
But only itself will know what is like...

poems

2009-02-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

To many is chrished,
To many is dear,
To many is important,
To many it means it's all...

To me is I really do like you,
To me is I will scacrifice myself for you,
To me is I will do whatever you want me to,
If you willing to be mine...

To some it maybe a joke,
To some it maybe alright,
To some it maybe common,
But to me, it meant it with all my heart...

150209

2009-02-15T20:32:00.002+08:00

Don't care what other people thinks, just go with your guts...

Today it seems to be a very CONFUSING YET SUPER MESSY DAY!.
Went to church at 11.45pm, Vivian left me alone. And i saw someone that i don't want to see. But i had no choice! i thought he does 6pm mass?? anyway, HE WAS THERE!!.. Argh! But i think i hurt someone feelings...

Okay. I Have to say this.

When am with a guy face to face I don't really talk much, i like having that phobia of talking to guys face to face, except for close friends and cousins and my brother:) But i really hate this saide of me, sigh. I will always talk normal, showing my trueself and talk openly, when we everytime hanging out often. Thats why i am able to show my crazy, cheerful side to my girl-friends onlys. Sigh. this is so saddening, i wonder how am i going to survive like this in poly...*Cries*...Thats why i am very sorry, cause been in girls school for 10 years... This is pathetic...m very sorry, if i don't talk that much and treat you guys like how i treat my other friends and all...

Thats really a confession side of me. I think even my close friends, buddies also don't know this side of me, I can't be myself when am with a guy or do anything properly, i will just act wriedly. Sigh. Okays enough of this, Lets procceds to my afternoon day:)

So in the afternoon went with my parents to see cars... It was boring but yet entertaining?? Too talk to Vivian on the phone too... (VIVIAN JUST EXCEPT IT!!, you know your feelings, unless you want to get yourself hurt, but think again la, the more you let him wait, the more he is anxious for your answer. And if you say no, you really gonna hurt him kays...) After that, went to northpoint to get revisions books for my N level, Oh yes! and this reminds me that tomorrow i am having social studies CT! or my lit? this is so confusing... Not comfrim which is having first.

Hmm todays the 15th.... OH NO!!! CHANGMIN BIRTHDAY is on the 18th feb!!! 3 more days!! and i haven't prepare anything for him!... what should i do?? i am such a failure as his fan... Nevermind. i will think of something within these 2 days. Haha..

Okays got to go. Will write my poem for today awhile later:)
See you all soon!:)

Valentine Day

2009-02-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

I hate my boyfriend, but I love my hubby...

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!

Today, was the most enjoyable, and yet the most happiest time! Although i don't have a boyfriend, still have my best buddy, best friends, and my friends with me, together celebrating Valentine Day. Isn't that sweet?:)

We took tons of photos!! Went to bugis, then to vivo haha. Legs are damm tired la. But it was worth it. Although there are up and down at the first part, the ends always the fablulous right Narin? haha!

Today was too sweet too! At the mrt, i was like telling Narin. "Singles should just stay at home today! I pity singles like us! Why ain't there just a single's days?" i mean, we are suround my couples! and they are just too sweet!. As i walk along the shops, all i see was the guys you know, give their girlfriends thousand of roses, holding hands, how i wish i could just be like them for once! Just once! But i am glad i still have my friends even though i don't have one. Didn't i say that before, oh wells. I JUST LOVE MY BUDDIES!!!:) Haha.

Enjoy the poems today!:)

HAPPY VDAY onces again, may all those love birds out there had a great time:)
see you all!:)

Poems..

2009-02-14T23:44:00.002+08:00

The way you look at me, could see a hot fire deep inside your eyes,
The way you touch me, your hands was as cold as ice,
The way you breathe around me, was as warm as the sun...
The way you moved around me, was like a light feather...

But now... As i looked deep inside you... I see a whole different thing...

The way you look at me, could see how much I meant to you, Always looking out for me...
The way you touch me, your hands was as hot as fire...
The way you breathe around me, i was like your only air...
The way you moved around me, i was like your only path to follow....

But...

The way you kissed me, was like the warm, gentle water, flowing non-stop, wanting more and more...

And Everything seems different and after...
When we're together:)

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!

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2009-02-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

Everything is like a total mess, if one don't make it right.

My head just hurts! Went with opy after school, did some last mintues shopping for tomorrow vday gifts.
And suddenly, our plan has all been change. I can't blame anyone can't i? Is just so messy.
Anyway, some is settle and some are not. I wonder what isit that my heart is unpleased with.
I am so pissed!. Maybe not enough sleep?? sigh.. Something is just suddenly wrong with me, and i can't tell it! What the hell is wrong with me!

But i am glad for Vivian, who able to get her love life soon:) Happy for you girl! Must strive hard for this relationship with your boyfriends kays, you'll always have my blessing, and my support as your friend:) Go girl!

Tomorrow Valentine day, thus with my sincer heart, I want to wish all Couples a very wonderful anniversay!:)

Goodbye readers:) Too tired to do anything:)